Wednesday, September 2, 2020
The amount of love and support that has been showered over me since my last post is so amazing. Thank you all so much for following me on this crazy journey. Thank you for all the prayers. Thank you for all the love. Thank you for the never ending support. I love you all so much and couldn’t do this without each of you cheering me on. You guys mean more to me than I can express in words.
Pre Dr. Appointment
Today is the day. Today is the day we find out if my month of chemo in the hospital kicked my cancer’s butt. For those of you who have had big days like today you understand what it feels like. You’re excited with the hope that you don’t have cancer anymore. But don’t want to be too optimistic in case you jinx it. But then you don’t want to be negative because that gives your body bad vibes and maybe the cancer grows off the negativity. I’m not kidding. These were all thoughts I had this morning. But then I said screw it. I got up. I worked out. Journaled and got ready for the day. I constantly kept reminding myself that God has me and whatever the results are he will give me strength. There’s a reason and greater plan for everything, even when it is so hard to see. I had to remind myself of this about 794563 times today. In between my flutter kicks I had to shake it off and redirect my thoughts back to squeezing those ab muscles. It’s hard to think about literally anything BUT if your cancer is gone or not on days like today. But you have to try and live life normally and not let cancer consume these days. Cancer takes enough from you. Don’t let it take another second of worry when you don’t have to. Do those high knees and jam out to 2000’s Hip Hop without letting cancer take anymore time from you. You can worry about your cancer at the Dr.’s appointment. Not for a second before or after. I know easier said than done.
Aaron picked me up from the apartment and we headed to the hospital. I was silent the entire way there. Super weird for him. He might’ve actually liked the silence hahaha I never stop talking usually. I had labs drawn before the appointment and then waited in a decently sized room at a table for the Dr. When he walked in he had a big smile on his face. Turns out, your girl is in a “deep remission” from the month of chemo! This is huge because that means I don’t have to do anymore chemo! The best news possible! I feel so incredibly blessed and so thankful for this news. There are numerous situations when people have to do a lot of different chemo’s to get them into remission. The fact that my month of chemo worked is beyond a miracle. God is SO GOOD. THANK YOU FOR ALL OF YOUR PRAYERS! THEY’RE WORKING AND I’M SO THANKFUL!
Because of the remission, I get to move directly to transplant! For those of you wondering why I need a stem cell transplant – my Leukemia will eventually come back because it is a mutation in my genes and so the only “curative” treatment is the stem cell transplant. So in about a month I will check back in to the hospital for my month stent where I get my new stem cells. I have an appointment next week with my transplant Dr. to talk about more of those details and I’ll fill you all in when that happens. But for now today was a huge win and we are celebrating!